A few days ago I received a message from someone I have known for many years, saying they were worried about me. At first I felt defensive, feeling I didn't need to be worried about, and then I became concerned my life and behaviors may be creating worry and concern. They were worried I would be disappointed in things that would never come to be.
I realized I was not sharing and expressing the good things happening in my life and self. I wasn't giving off the feeling I was okay, when I really am! Miracles have happened. God is good. I am growing, healing and trying new things.
I do not want to do anything for others to feel worried or concerned about. I am more hopeful, blessed and better than I have been in many years, even though sad things and losses have happened along the way. This is a better time for me.
So today, as I look at some of my paintings and photos, I reflect the wandering, walking, hiking, crawling, ascending and descending I have done. I haven't been alone on these treks in my life over the past while. I have been upheld in prayer by precious prayer warriors across the country, embraced and loved by family, supported and helped from hard work of friends who believe in my art and life. I have been advised by godly mentors, encouraged by kindness and loyalty of my patients. Cared about by good neighbors and even strangers, who are now dear friends. My sons and I have had great hikes, and laughs and crazy adventures I would never trade. And most of all, a patient loving God, with such broad shoulders to carry the whole world and me upon them. And all our burdens too.
So please do not worry about me. I don't have much hope for things of the past, but I am filled with hope for tomorrow, new things and people. God has been good to me.
Artist & Storyteller
"The grass fadeth and the flower, but the word of our God shall stand forever." -Isaiah 40:8